News and Other News

Last night or even yesterday, I totally failed. I forgot to take out the pork chops from the freezer for dinner. I swear the baby is just sucking all my brain cells right out of my head day after day! So, instead we had Chinese for dinner, which I love! I always get Jeff their chicken fingers appetizer and honestly it is like a couple of meals for him. He tried fried rice for the first time and absolutely loved it! The baby even liked it because I got to eat a full dinner. Although I did not finish it.

I got myself chicken and green beans, a pint of won ton soup, and fried dumplings. The fried dumplings are my favorite actually! I try to get them all the time when I can. I ate those first, LOL. I have the soup and the rest of my dinner left today for lunch. Jeff has a lot of chicken left for his lunch, so we are good to go for today.

The issue is that I woke up at 5:30 am with heartburn. Again. Ugh. I took some antacid and I am waiting for it to work. Which it seems to be taking it’s sweet time. I have a doctor appointment on Monday, they will do another sugar test on me to see if I am diabetic. Ugh. I hate those! I get horrible headaches after this test because they are dumping a whole lot of sugar into my system at once. Then, I have to sit there for an hour and wait, then they take my blood. Ugh.

Normally I would only have to do this one time, but because I am 40, it is a whole different set of rules. Don’t get me wrong, I know they are being cautious, but this really puts a lot of stress on me because I get the migraine from hell and in relation, puts a ton of stress on the baby too. So, I will take my migraine meds with me to take afterwards and M said he will get me some real food to eat after the test which will help counter all the sugar that will be in my system.

M’s parents are renting a house not far from us while they are here. They will be here for about a week and will leave after my birthday. I am looking forward to their visit and Jeff meeting them for the first time!

So, M has a 3 day drill coming up in September, but is not sure if he has to go. They will be back the day before his knee surgery and honestly I do not want him to go because they will be in the field and there is such a high risk that he will hurt his knee even more than it already is. If that happens, all the higher ups in the unit would be in trouble for letting him go. So, on Tuesday he has to talk to them and see what they want him to do. It seems kind of crazy to me that Tuesday is already September 1st! Holy cow!

Of course we are waiting on Amazon to get their butts in gear and fill out the paperwork for M’s leave and pay while he is out for surgery. Sigh. If this is not done in time, he will have to put the surgery off I fear. So,it is a waiting game and I am not good at that game when the deadline is so close!

I think I am going to go back and lay down some more.

-Ciao!

I Do Not Understand Why

When you are pregnant and other people know, as they will usually find out through your announcement or someone will always let the cat out of the bag. If you are a first time mom, I am going to tell you that people will always tell you their birth stories of their kids or if they don’t have kids it will be about a relative/friend. Ugh. Shut up. Just shut up already. I know these people mean no harm, but they will usually scare the crap out of first time moms with horror stories of 48 hour labors and all that other stuff. Look, not everyone is the same. Labor for me is not going to be the same as it was/is for you. So, just stop scaring the crap out of those poor first time moms who have no idea what to expect.

Secondly, everyone will want to touch you. Ugh. NO. When I was pregnant with my first son who is an adult now, some lady in a pet store walked up to me and put her hand on my belly and said, awwe… I looked her dead in the eyes and said “If you do not remove your hand from me, I will bite you.” I kid you not. I hate having strangers touch me uninvited. I was appalled at this. When is it okay to touch someone you do not know?!? It’s not. Not in my book.

I did take the Lamaze class and while it was somewhat helpful, it did not really answer all the questions. So, you learn the hard way that yes, birth is a beautiful thing but it is painful. No one talked about that part. Oh, and while we are on the subject, allowing a video camera in the labor room with me, not a good idea. I am a potty mouth momma.. All I heard on the birth video was me cussing everyone out.. LOL. Yeah. No.

Also, a good idea not to let someone who pisses you off in the labor room with you.. They will get on your ever loving last nerve and you WILL cuss them out.. I know because I did it to my mom. Yeppers, my own mother, but in my defense she was being really ANNOYING…

You will find your own way of doing things, do not let anyone talk you into things you do not want or talk you out of things you do want. If you want drugs, by all means get them! I have done 3 births, one without drugs and honestly never ever again… But that is me and you are different..

So, this ends my advice to you… Just do what you want. You are the one having this kid, no one else. Do what you want.

-Ciao!

Lately

You know that lately I have been not able to eat much, well, it has caught up with me. There have been times, few and far between where I could eat an entire meal over the last month or so. This morning I woke up with no voice and feeling like garbage.. Actually, I am pretty sure garbage felt better than I did. Originally I had a dentist appointment today but I had to have M call and cancel it because of the no voice thing.

Fast forward to about 1 pm today, got my voice back, but still feeling and looking really bad. M had to go to the VA to pick up medical records for his pay when he is out for surgery. He has to be at the armory tomorrow so it was just easy for him to get them today to turn in tomorrow while he is there. We had told the place we live about a leak in the closet where the hot water heater is about a couple of weeks ago and no one showed up to look at it. We think it is coming from upstairs, but is dripping into our apartment.

Well, M took some pictures with his phone today and took them to the office. In about 5 minutes, (before he could even text me that they were actually coming) 2 maintenance guys showed up at the door. I am pretty sure that I scared them! I am pretty sure I even saw one visibly flinch! LOL. I wish I felt bad about that, but honestly I do not I am not feeling well and pregnant and not to mention I have an almost two year old to deal with while feeling this way! Sorry, but this is what REAL parenting and pregnancy looks like!

On another note, I finally have a firm date on when M’s parents will be here and we are all excited! We will be getting married on either October 15th or 16th depending.. I can not wait! M’s surgery is on September 14th so prayers and good thoughts are appreciated, he is having his ACL repaired finally!!

Lots going on in the next few months!! Oh man, I am tired… Wishing Jeff would go lay down for a nap, but it is almost 5pm, so probably not. Sad smile 

Gonna run…

-Ciao!

Confessions and How Lucky I am

This is not going to be a usual kind of post for me, so if you want you can feel free to skip this one…

I have not been able to sleep a lot lately and I know why that is. Some is the pregnancy and the fun stuff that comes with it, but a lot of it is all these horrific videos about Planned Parenthood. First, let me say when all this started, I was on the fence because I was not sure where all this was going. It was one video and I had been to Planned Parenthood in the past for medical reasons and they had always been okay.. However, I had an abortion when I was 16 under immense pressure from people in my life.. These videos make me wonder what happened back then. There was an article that had claimed that PP had been doing all these horrific things for the last 40 years. That is when the nightmares began. 

I look at my son now and wonder what that baby could have been.. what that child could have accomplished. I know it was not my decision totally and I was essentially forced into it. I still share some of the responsibility. I am a very lucky woman, I have a wonderful soon to be husband, a healthy son, and a healthy daughter who will be born soon. So by all accounts, I have it all.. 

We have rough times and we have good times like everyone else. There are days that honestly I am so tired that I don’t think I can make it through another day, then I do. I love my active little boy and I would not change him for anything.. I see all these kids who are terminal and sick and I just tear up. I know some of it is hormones but I feel bad that these little kids have to deal with chemo and other things they should have no clue about. 

I need to go… My boy is dancing and I want to dance with him!

-Ciao!

Sleep… Apparently None for Me

No, this is not a scheduled post, I am truly up at 1:39am writing this as the rest of the house sleeps.. Can I just take a minute to say how freakin jealous I am of them?!?! Ugh. I have had issues lately with sleeping and honestly I thought they were behind me, but well, nope. 

First off, I am hot. Not in the wow, she is hot looking way, but in the omg my skin is melting off it is so damn hot in here way. Now, I know this is just me and my hormones are acting up again. Yeah, I am 40 and pregnant, so hormones play a HUGE roll. Secondly, I have heartburn that could light Texas up for a month! I have no idea where my second bottle of antacid went because Jeff decided to throw it some place because I would not let him play with it. It is shrink wrapped and has the inside cover thingy still on it, so he could not get into it, but now I need it and can’t find it. I can’t exactly go turning lights on to look either.. so I sit here in the dark typing this and suffering. 

Honestly, all I want is sweet sleep for once. No nightmares, no heart burn, no hot room… Just nice, wonderful, restorative sleep.. Maybe tomorrow.. yeah who am I kidding with that? LOL

-Ciao!

Life Lately

I have been actively trying to get into the kitchen and cook more lately. See, before we had kids, I was always making new recipes and trying out new things, but after, not so much. Life got crazy with a baby in the house and cooking for fun went on the back burner. Life in the kitchen lately has been about fast, easy meals. I miss the days where I made Swedish Meatballs from scratch. 

I have been actively trying to find freezer meals that I can make before the baby comes and all that has to be done is put in the oven or crock pot, so life will be easier on us because I know I will not want to cook and I know M will be tired as it is peak season at Amazon when the baby is born. We are very lucky in that Jeff is a wonderful eater so far and basically as long  as  I am eating it, so will he with very few exceptions. 

I am going to have M’s mom come back out after the baby is born to help with Jeff and I know he will love that! I am so tired lately.. I know it is part of the whole pregnant thing, but also dealing with Jeff exhausts me! LOL. He is so crazy active and curious.. I love it. He is walking so much more now and using a sippy cup with regularity, which I am so proud of, but I wish he would slow down! LOL. Well, I have to run… 

-Ciao!

To Eat or Not To Eat, That Seems to be the Issue

Being pregnant I know that I was going to have some issues with food. It has happened every time, with every child. So, I thought I knew what to expect. In the beginning, I was actively craving fresh fruit and cold water. Now, not so much. I see stuff on Facebook (I follow a number of cooking and recipe pages) that looks good. My mouth will water and when I get to have it, the baby is like, NO! LOL. 

Case in point, a friend of mine went to Disney and posted a picture of a delicious looking cheeseburger and I was like OMG, YUM. Fast forward to last night, my wonderful hubby made me yummy cheeseburgers and I had a few bites and the baby was like, um, no. Sigh. Really?!?

So, now I am trying to figure out what to eat and let me tell you, it is not easy! I am so envious of those women who have cravings now. Yes, as sad as it seems, I have food envy right now. We had BLT’s the other night and they were good. I actually got to eat a whole sandwich that night. It is getting so bad that I lost a pound between doctor visits. The weight loss is not bad, they did not even say anything, but I know it is because I can basically only eat about maybe half of anything I am trying to eat. 

This is worst than having to share my food with a toddler! At least the toddler will let me have some.. I am tired all the time and I know some of it is from not being able to eat enough lately, which of course makes it hard to keep up with the toddler! It is a vicious circle! Tonight I have pork chops out for dinner, not really sure what I am doing with them yet, but they are thawing.. it is also M’s birthday.. So, I will try to eat tonight and see what happens. I need to try and get lunch down here in a bit too.. sigh. Wish me luck!

Ciao!!