Truly Chaos For the Moment

Okay, so let me start with current events, M has gone to National Guard training leaving me home with both kids… alone… yeah.  We had a hard day that first day he was gone (Aug. 6th.) but things got better the next few days until yesterday on the 10th. Then I had a mothering melt down literally. So many things at play yesterday. And then trying to get Jeff to sleep and the A/C quit. I called the after hours number because it was almost 11 pm and 80 in the house. They called back in like 5 minutes and were out here in about 15 minutes in the dark with a flashlight. It was fixed by the time he left at 1 am. Laid down, Jeff decided to almost roll off the bed at about 2 am and when I moved him he started screaming and woke Charlotte up. Gah! So, I got up and made her a bottle brought him up on my lap and rocked him back to sleep, it is now almost 3am. I laid him back in bed turned on Daniel Tiger’s Neighborhood (Thank God for Amazon Prime!) and told Jeff I would be in as soon as I could be.

Went back out and tried to get Charlotte back to sleep, which did not occur until about 4am. She was rolling over in her bouncy seat (her new trick) every five minutes and I had to flip her back over like a pancake because she would start screaming! On and on.. Finally in bed at 4ish am and then Charlotte wakes up at 7 am and did not go back to sleep until almost 9 am in which case Jeff was already up. So this momma got 3 hours of sleep and I have no idea how I am even still upright at this point, I am praying that they both decide to take naps today cause I could sure use one!

Something I have not really talked about here is my adoption journey. Before I had Charlotte M got me a Ancestry DNA kit because I was wondering what ethnicity I was. I wanted to be able to tell the kids what I was, so they had the whole picture. Well, that actually put me in touch with a biological cousin and her family. It looks so strange to me to even type the preceding sentence at all. She has been helping me track down my biological parents because I am a huge mystery in the family as it were. So, for all of you keeping score, in my adopted family I am the black sheep and in the biological family I am a mystery! LOL. She has gone through and compared my DNA, her DNA, and her sister’s DNA line by line.

We have narrowed it down to about three people who were in the right area at the right time, now we are looking for records to back it up. So, I have been on a mission most of this week and on the phone a lot! A roller coaster of emotion does not even really begin to cover it. Some of the original information that I was given back in the 1990’s turned out to be totally false and I am wondering why someone who did not know me from Adam would tell me such a lie. Anywhoo, I digress… I was told that my adoption records were destroyed in a fire at the Children’s Services building. The only thing wrong with that information is that fire happened in 1907. Yea, nothing to do with me or my records. So, a wall of sorts, but good news is that my records exist someplace!

Called the heath department and a very nice lady directed me to another health department in the capital of Ohio, called there and got a guy who sounded really unhappy with his job choice (my inference, he did not tell me that) he directed me to a web page with information on how I could get copies of all the paperwork in my adoption file. So, I have an answer and a way to get the information that I need. I am overwhelmed because I am doing this all on my own right now and I have to be the only parent to the kids at the same time. Needless to say my mind is in other places and that is where the trouble starts.

We are having a better day today. We have the living room almost totally cleaned up. Jeff has been a huge help with that! I am so tired. So, I have been through the ringer since Monday basically and it is only Thursday and M is not back for another whole week!! Life is crazy right now and I am on a roller coaster! I guess I can scream through the ride or throw my hands up and try to enjoy it…

-Ciao!

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So Much Happening Over a Short Period!

Okay, let me go back real fast and see where we left off, you have time to grab yourself some tea and get comfortable.  Okay back! So, Since we last gabbed on June 18th, a lot has happened! Our apartment was recently renovated ( the 28th as it happens.) That day was LONG. Luckily the renovators let us have until noon to leave as we had stuff to do anyway, but the days leading up to that were both tiring and frustrating too. We had to remove everything from the kitchen counters, under the cabinets, out of all the cabinets and drawers, top of fridge, everywhere. We also had to remove everything from the bathroom, counters, cabinets, towel bars, shower curtain, medicine cabinet, everywhere. Then without telling us they changed the day that the appliances were being done, which originally was the 29th, so we had time to get a cooler for the food and empty the dishwasher, um, not so much. They decided to do that on the 28th too, with no warning. Ugh. We came back about 5 pm and they were not done, so we went to dinner ( we had that planned anyway) and come back by at 7:30 pm and they were almost finished, so we took Jeff to his second park of the day. We got home from that at 8:30 pm and they were gone.

Jeff got new shoes and sandals, which he desperately needed! He is wearing a size 8 1/2 – 9 now!! His shoes were a size 6, I felt so horrible because the day before he was crying that his feet hurt!! I should say so! There is no Stride Rite in the mall here anymore, but we found a fantastic shoe store not far from the mall and they measured his feet and helped us find some great shoes! I can not say enough about Howard Curry Shoes!! They were just totally amazing!

After shoes we went to Wendy’s down the way a bit for lunch, I had not had Wendy’s in a while and enjoyed it as did Jeff, it was his first time! We stopped off at Walmart to grab some baby water for Miss. Charlotte so I could have a good amount of bottles, we just brought a can and half of formula with us and all the 8 ounce bottles we had because we did not know how many we would need and how long we would be gone for!

We went to the first park of the day after that, it was about 2 pm by this time and Jeff’s First Steps appointment was at 3 pm but we were not that far from where it was. He did amazingly great all day Tuesday! The appointment for First Steps is for a speech delay and they did a hearing test there, he totally passed that, but because of Miss. Charlotte’s issues with hearing, they wanted a more in depth hearing test which will take place on July 25th. We got him all signed up there and I have to go through all that stuff and re read a lot of it.

We went to Golden Corral for dinner because, we never really know what exactly we want and this gives us so many choices! Jeff ate quite a bit and had some milk and because he was so good all day he got dessert! He had a chocolate chocolate chip cookie and three gummy bears, which he loved! Of course it was so hot that day and our car does not have great A/C or honestly I do not think we have A/C at all. With all the running around, Jeff did not get more than maybe a 20 minute nap but still did so good.

The last couple of days have been spent putting the house back together. I have a few more things to get finished, but washing all the pans and stuff that had renovation dust on them, so of course that takes like 2-3 three times longer. I was not going to do much today, but got 3 boxes emptied and more dishes done. I still have to make dinner tonight, but that is not a big deal because we are having meatball subs and French fries for dinner so easy peasy dinner. Which is what I had planned. Last night I had originally planned to eat out again, but I made home made pizzas instead.

There is one blind missing in the kitchen and apparently it is a special order and it is not in yet. They are hoping either Friday or Tuesday, honestly I am hoping for Friday.. LOL, but not holding my breath though.

Oh July 5th Miss. Charlotte is going to the hematologist to be checked and possible blood transfusion. So, that will be a long day for M as he volunteered to take her so Jeff and I could just sleep in!  I have an MRI coming up on July 18th.. Not really looking forward to that.

Miss Charlotte did go to her post op appointment and they want to see her in 3 months and then she needs another hearing test (ABR) at 12 months. I can not believe how fast this year is flying by! Last year at this time we were getting ready for the In-Laws to visit in October! M and I have almost been married a whole year! Good gravy!!

Well, I need to run and empty the dishwasher for the 100th time!

-Ciao!

I am Tired

I am so tired of not being able to sleep well lately. I just can not get comfortable and the heart burn is horrible every single night. I wake up from a sound sleep some nights with horrible heart burn. Not to mention that I am constantly hot. I am always trying to leave the A/C on, but since tonight it is going to be down into the 30’s I have the heat on so the family does not freeze over night. I am sitting here typing this and I am HOT. I would love to open a window or something but do not dare. 

I am so tired of doctors. In the week of Thanksgiving, I have 2 appointments on Monday, M has 2 appointments on Tuesday, we have an appointment on Wednesday, and thank God that Thursday is Thanksgiving and all my doctor offices are closed on Friday. I am due 12/6 which is fastly approaching and honestly I can not wait to sleep. 

I am going to go and try to lay down.. I am so tired. 

-Ciao!

 

Sleep… Apparently None for Me

No, this is not a scheduled post, I am truly up at 1:39am writing this as the rest of the house sleeps.. Can I just take a minute to say how freakin jealous I am of them?!?! Ugh. I have had issues lately with sleeping and honestly I thought they were behind me, but well, nope. 

First off, I am hot. Not in the wow, she is hot looking way, but in the omg my skin is melting off it is so damn hot in here way. Now, I know this is just me and my hormones are acting up again. Yeah, I am 40 and pregnant, so hormones play a HUGE roll. Secondly, I have heartburn that could light Texas up for a month! I have no idea where my second bottle of antacid went because Jeff decided to throw it some place because I would not let him play with it. It is shrink wrapped and has the inside cover thingy still on it, so he could not get into it, but now I need it and can’t find it. I can’t exactly go turning lights on to look either.. so I sit here in the dark typing this and suffering. 

Honestly, all I want is sweet sleep for once. No nightmares, no heart burn, no hot room… Just nice, wonderful, restorative sleep.. Maybe tomorrow.. yeah who am I kidding with that? LOL

-Ciao!